Why do you have to go that far for someone like me?
No matter how many times I hurt you, why are you still by my side?
The more you do it.. the more I hate myself.
How do you suppress your hidden monster?
I feel like I'm always at the edge ready to devour you.
I'd only break you.
But how do you ask someone you don't want to lose to leave you?
It's so hard.
Please let go of me, monster.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Thursday, July 24, 2014
ACT 3: Goodbye Hobby! T~T
Today I consulted the result of my x-ray and the doctor said it was okay. Whew~
(￣▽￣)ノ
The pain in my knee right now was diagnosed as patellofemoral syndrome. (it sounds so mental-ish to me xD) but anyway so there.. I was advised to consult a physical therapist for rehabilitation. （￣へ￣）But I'm still glad that it wasn't something that would render me disable （ToT）
But because of this, I might say goodbye to dancing for now. Although it's not like I'm doing it recently anyway. I decided to minimize activities that would strain my knee even more.. there's a loooooot of things I still wanna do, onegai. (,,#ﾟДﾟ) please don't give up on me~
Also, I'm really thankful for my supervisor and boss for allowing me to continue my medical check-up despite that I wasn't able to report to work right after lunch.
They're so understanding~~~ Thank you! (*＾▽＾)／
Above all.. God thank you for this wonderful chance again!
I'll work hard to live my life well!
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
ACT 2: Display Picture
And I was trying to do my display picture. And this is the best I can make. ||Orz
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| Yoshioka Futaba (Ao Haru Ride) |
ACT 1: Hello Again Operating Room!
||Orz
It's my third time in an operating room already. All with the same reason - cyst removal. The first two was infected so they only drained and the third time is the actual removal.. and the most painful one at that.
☆⌒(＞。≪)イタイ
The operation lasted for 30 minutes. I've been shot with several anesthesia since the effect diminishes as the operation takes longer.ε-(´・｀) ﾌｰ
But I survived. ♪(ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ
I actually went to the hospital alone.. and thanks to my health card I didn't pay anything although the procedure costs 10k!∑(O_O；) I was scared but I prayed that the operation will go well. And it did.
Although it's all painful now that I even have to take 2 days leave at work. I just hope that would be the last time that I'm saying hi to that OR.. wahahaha!
The scar is unattractive in all aspects.. but much better than it getting infected again.
Moreover, my other sickness actually worries me more..
I wish I just googled too much of the symptoms and it's not actually serious than I think it is.
//hopes
//072214
It's my third time in an operating room already. All with the same reason - cyst removal. The first two was infected so they only drained and the third time is the actual removal.. and the most painful one at that.
☆⌒(＞。≪)イタイ
The operation lasted for 30 minutes. I've been shot with several anesthesia since the effect diminishes as the operation takes longer.ε-(´・｀) ﾌｰ
But I survived. ♪(ﾉ´∀｀*)ﾉ
I actually went to the hospital alone.. and thanks to my health card I didn't pay anything although the procedure costs 10k!∑(O_O；) I was scared but I prayed that the operation will go well. And it did.
Although it's all painful now that I even have to take 2 days leave at work. I just hope that would be the last time that I'm saying hi to that OR.. wahahaha!
The scar is unattractive in all aspects.. but much better than it getting infected again.
Moreover, my other sickness actually worries me more..
I wish I just googled too much of the symptoms and it's not actually serious than I think it is.
//hopes
//072214
